I'll keep it in

when I poured it in,

my stomach rejected it.

it burned and wailed and 

tried to push it out but

I kept it in until it felt good.

burnt holes through my faith

and skin and left me naked.

so raw that it hurt to be truthful

and it choked to swallow : 

so I kept it in until it felt unbearable.

now it lives in my veins 

and it aches and relieves.

won't ever mention what it is

as the best in unnamed.

I'll keep it in until you're mine.