I'm good at holding my breath


I'm good at holding my breath,
So I often watch the clock and simulate 
a controlled death.

While the second tick, I notice things 
about you that I've never thought of before.
I wonder how did you get that scar of your chin?
A story plays through my suffocating nerve cells,
finding all the possible details I've missed about you.
They say at this point, your life starts to 
flash before your eyes, and I guess they're right because
you're constantly flashing before my eyes hun.

I sit there, watch a minute go by, then another.
My god, you do have a pretty smile!
You will not believe if I say this is much easier than to wait for a call or just hope
if I still matter? Obviously I do. Holding your breath makes you hallucinate. Also
imparts a sense of being important; something I'd like to feel someday.

My chest burns, time's up.
I breathe in with leisure and breathe out a sigh.
Beloved, I'll give you another try.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

the ac is dripping my love

Image
the ac is dripping on your seat love. the water so cold and dry. the droplets, they fall and the seat absorbs and forms miscellaneous images of you . the ac is dripping my love, you would've found it funny. it makes me smile and then the droplets fall and the seat absorbs, it absorbs any remaining cheer this journey has to offer, any remaining tears the AC has. your hair, they would've been wet by now and you would've hated it. it's alright love, it's just water. it drips down and vanishes. Now it is taking you with it. water led to life once upon a time, now it is leading to my lifelessness, a world without you my love.
Read more

white noise

Image
amidst the white noise there lies a peace,  there lies a piece of diminished words once spoken ; now too tired to be spilt out and  too important to be not said.  it's a hush and murmur of infinite reasons why life happened the way it did.  there lies cracks,  there lies hums  of when a soul screamed ;  now at peace with everything that  once felt so wrong.  it's a distortion and disturbance of finite capacities of why things felt the way they did. 
Read more

to whom I love

Image
to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall rest my head on her shoulder and find symphonies in her breath. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall glorify the life in her eyes only if I wasn't blind to colours that exist. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall softly touch her hands when the world sings anthems of the eventual love we fall in. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall look at her like a bird looks at a sunset and feels comforted enough to go home.  to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall sit close to her and whisper my giggles as if I've never been in glee. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall talk to her and make conversations about how to love and love her the same way. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall sing songs on trails I've never been on and listen to the sound of her soul. to whom I love, my beloved,  I shall not reply when she asks about the one I love because she answers the quest...
Read more